February 7, 2025

 Why am I scared to answer messages right away?

Why do I wait for a long time, days even months, before I actually respond?

Why do I allow myself to feel guilty of not responding, when I can reply right away to messages but I choose not to do so? 

WHY do I do this to myself?

What is wrong with me?

I'm afraid that eventually... people will stop getting to know me.

I'm terrified, but I'm also not doing anything to change it.

I need help.

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